Middle of the week

Wednesday...the middle of the week. Not Monday (thank god) but definitely not Friday. You spend all day trying to get through it so that you can get to the weekend. Now that school is back in session my days seem to be more rushed and I am not sure I like that very much. Trying to work in the getting ready, going to work, getting the children where they need to be and then making time for working out. Ok, so the working out is starting to suffer. I was more diligent when I had a goal. A clear goal. Over the course of the past year I have gone from 162 to 129. At least that is what I was the last time I stepped on the scale. It may be less now. When I originally started losing weight I was 185.5. For someone with a frame as small as mine that means I was a shorter stay puff marshmallow man. Ha! Losing weight is funny. You have a clear path to get there, at least in theory. You have it all planned out and dieting has been crammed down our throats, but no one tells you what to do when you get there. I am not at my goal weight, but I have thought about that. What do you do when you get to your goal weight? I think maybe that is why so many people have trouble keeping the weight off. They know how to diet, but no one tells them how to maintain. Maybe they just don't expect or want us to ever get to goal. Hard to keep peddling your wares if you have success stories in everyone. People will pass on the secret. My goals have changed significantly in the battle of the bulge. I used to be singularly focused on a number on that stupid scale. Not so much any more. Now I am focused on my fitness. Muscle is where it is at. My core is like one big wibbly wobbly mess. Totally not fair that all of the remaining fat on my body collects in my middle. And of course I have the ab muscles of a piece of paper. But I have taken my measurements and I know where I want to be with them. I will tell you that I do get tired of the whole harder to lose weight over 40. I can't lose weight because I am over 40. Whatever!!! I am 43. I have lost my weight in my 40's. I am a success. I remember being in 10/12 not too long ago and now I am wearing a pair of size 4 pants. I have size 2 jeans at home. It is conceivable to achieve any goal no matter what your age. Just put your mind to it. Might not come as easy as it did at 20, but it will come. Also, exercise. Lord I am not a biggest fan of exercise, but the fact of the matter is you have to workout if you want to see results. And don't bitch about all the things you think you can't do. I hear all the time people stating they cannot exercise because they have bad knees or they have bad this or that. Yes, there are people with real issues..medical issues that prevent them from working out. Totally give them the be careful with whatever you choose to do to get a little exercise don't hurt yourself permanently. But for those of you with aches and pains get off your ass and work out. Seriously lose some weight because you will find that those ache's and pains go away when you lose weight and reduce the stress and strain on your joints. Take pride in yourself. No matter what your size stand up tall and face the world head on. Dress appropriately, you look heavier and dumpier when you dress like a sack of potatoes. No, the big ass mumu does not fool people into thinking your are not fat. Actually it makes you look fatter. Really don't jump on me. I am telling you the truth. I have been there. You cannot camouflage benig over weight. Oh, and for heaven's sake please do not wear the skin tight clothes either. Just wear something in your size. Not the size you think you are the size that you actually are. Surprisingly you will feel a lot better about yourself if you dress in clothes that fit. And if you don't like what I have to say too bad. I earned the right to say these things. I was that fat chick. I worked hard to not be her, to get here. Every day is a challenge. I would so love to just sit and munch on all the yummy things in life, but I made a decision and those things don't fit in any more.